The Other Side

Yes. He may be a liar.. a selfish liar. He maybe the most "confused" jerk 'she' has ever met. He gave his word, i mean wordsss and she believed them. He's just an ordinary person. Well.. quite different. He's confused about everything. That sucks, I know. He makes things complicated. He wants more than what he deserves. He believes to some things quite odd... and... he's someone I didn't expect to be much deeper. He's so deep I can't even find him now. =))) Okay I am being judgmental. I don't know what happened  but I know that she's serious. And the guy? Hmm.. Maybe? I don't know much.

Lately, I felt nostalgic about what she used to be. Now? She's always like crying.. doing things not good.. and worse, she's cursing! But the last one's exaggerated lol. I know she's just hurt. And I understand her. She shouldn't be hurt. She doesn't deserve it. Like hello?! it's just a guy. And to think that there are millions of guys out there. But she's just the way she is. She's too kind.. she loves MORE. Now, she ended up hurting.. MORE.

That day, before the incident, I saw her smiling while texting. I even saw her daydreaming alone at home. What more to say? All I can think of is, "is she like obsessed or sumthin?!" Everytime she feels happy, I feel very frustrated. Gotta lot of negative vibes you know. I'm pessimistic while she is my total opposite. Then I said to myself, "he'll leave you.. not now, but sooner or later." Who cares? She doesn't mind me. She always says, "Just stop. He's not like that. He's just a little...confused. Well not confused, as in gender preference confused?! I know he's much more, and I'm loving every bit of it." Bla bla bla whatever. She never listens. She's very excited if the guy is coming over. I don't feel like it. I can't stand it! But oh well, what will I do then? I can't stop her from seeing him. I'm just a part of her.

The guy's got a face though. He's not much taller and yes! he's a gentleman I might say. He takes care of her when she's sick. Even buy her meds for slight fever. Sweet. But his sweetness is somewhat not typical. Definitely not a romantic type. Whenever he brings food, her smile is suddenly all over her face. She couldn't help it maybe because it's from his lover. (lol yuck) Going back, if you'll be given the chance to at least see him, he looks... thin. :))))) Kidding aside, he seems fun to be with, he's the type of guy whom you wanted to be with..forever. But no. Yes, I said no. He's not what you think he is. He's so unpredictable and that's what makes him interesting. Can't blame her why she is so attracted to him. When it comes to other stuffs like his principles or whatsoever, he's quite impressive. He shapes every fine details and interpret it. See what I mean? He's like a geek or something, but the cool one of course. Hmm which side am I now? Ugh. She's influencing me again. All I know is that I barely know him. I do know his birthday, names of his past girlfriends. (let's just pretend he had one lol). But the other side of him? I don't know much YET. But I know, he's much more.. much more to her.

And that depressing incident happened again. And again. And again. Uhhhh.. deja vu? =))))

I am just annoyed about the fact that he wants a "PARTIAL/ HALF-HALF BREAKUP". I don't know what's the right word for that, but the real deal here is he wants the girl to be "not in a relationship with him" but still wants her. Got the idea? Got the fucking selfish idea??? WHO THE FUCK WOULD AGREE WITH THAT?! BUT. A big BUT again, she never listens. Remember that I'm the pessimistic one? She's the other side. She does what it takes just to understand his not so goody goody "boyfriend". She's being open minded. She's like, "Alright, calm down, everything's just gonna be fine. I love him so give him everything that will make him happy." I tried to stop her. But it didn't change anything because I'm just a part of her. What a selfish fucking bastard. he was like hey! my girlfriend is here, she matters! and then, hey my girlfriend's not around, i'm free. Tss, jerk alert. Okay. I judged him again. But can you blame me? She's hurting. But she still doesn't care. She still wants to win him back. So as expected, because of her poor little heart that melts everytime he says "sorry", she gave him a second chance. Wait, is it a second? or third or fourth? Yes, you read it right. MANY CHANCES. You may be wondering why I am mean and bitter. Because I think, and I have a brain, not a heart. And to me, mind over matter. Mind over the heart. But I cannot blame her for doing stupid things like that. She's just being her. No matter how she wants to make revenge for hurting her, she still can't and she doesn't want it that way. She's definitely not like that. She still cares. Though she chose to be silent, she still cares and will still be caring silently.

I don't know what will happen next. It's his move and her decision that will tell. I don't know when this will end. I don't know much. All I know is that there is something in him that only she can understand. We'll never know.

P.S. (amateur writer here who is just expressing herself, no hard feelings.)